1 Jan 2020.
After an unexpectedly ‘eventful’ new years eve, I awoke on the 1st of January not feeling as peace filled as I’d hoped. Rather I felt discombobulated with the familiar shadow of self doubt clouding my mind. The voice that judges me and tells me I’ve messed up.
One of the great things about hiking the PCT was that I became more conscious of my mind and I worked to befriend it. I got pretty good at calling myself out on my own BS.
So I politely disagreed with my 1st of January shadowy chat. It sounds kinda cheesy but I want to be a best friend to myself. The kind of friend who gets it, who laughs at and loves me regardless of my mess ups.
The rest of the day was well spent at my parent’s house with my sisters, nieces and nephew. We shared delicious food, chat and sat around as the kids got sillier and crankier.
But there was no rush, nothing else that needed to be done and nowhere else to be.
In bed that night I reflected at the ease and peacefulness I feel when I spend time with my parents. It’s hasn’t always been like this but it’s been there for the last couple of years. There’s a calmness in their home that radiates from them. And when I’m in right relationship with both myself and time I can feel and receive it.
The thing I want to pursue most this year is the peaceful calmness that comes from being in right relationship with self and with time, regardless of where I am or what is happening.
What feeling are you seeking this year? If you don’t know, I’d love to help with my 9th Feb ‘Goals with Heart workshop’ in Inverness. If you know how you want to feel but can’t feel it I can help at my May retreat, my Women’s Wellbeing Treks for Wellbeing or one to one counselling.
Wishing you a calm peacefulness whatever stories your mind is telling you just now.
1 Jan 2020.